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TERMINAL
Ezra Glenn
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EZRA BENNETT GLENN
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the ground could and would never look the same and triangles
don’t sit still like how things writhe and scream when you sit
them still on the ground, in the ground. I put all of the things on
the ground and then my basement was the only place left in the
ground without all of my friends. Junior Prom got moved to my
basement and it smelled terrible and everyone blamed me for hav-
ing a weird smelling basement. The smell was coming from the
oor and the walls where I put things. I tried to change myself
but I ended up changing everyone else and how they looked with
their arms and heads and basement smells in concrete and the
ground is like my face with all of these bloody holes. I used to
have a lot of dreams where someone poured lava underneath the
front door and it came into my room and started eating away at
the posts of my loft-bed so I was sinking down closer and closer
to the lava and where I couldn’t scream no matter how loud I
needed to be to warn everyone about what was coming and what
I saw in the ground, and what the edges of triangles can do if
you’re not careful or if you are careful in a different sort of way,
following the lines of her body like he did to me. I dreamed I was
sitting naked on a radiator and a fat man and a fat woman were
touching each other in front of me and then they were touching
me and my skin was burning. I dreamed Daffy Duck came down
to hell on a zip line. I was there waiting for someone and be-
cause of what I’d done. I never dreamed who I was waiting for
but my mother said I shouldn’t tell anyone what I saw her do and
I shouldn’t tell anyone what my father did to me I dreamed it. I
dreamed I didn’t do what I did in fact it wasn’t a dream I didn’t
do it it was just a dream when I did it was my lifelong dream to
feel that power I have never felt better than that it was the only
time I ever felt anything it was the only time I didn’t want to die
was when I was killing someone else was when I put my spade to
the ground don’t dream it’s over I wanted to hold on to that feel-
ing forever when I was on the ground with everything that was
mine it was a dream fullled it was not a dream so good to feel
I was reading about how pyramids are really just girls sitting on
the ground dressed as triangles. I was reading about girls and what
it’s like to be a y. I was ying in an airplane. The airplane was
on the ground sitting on the ground not moving but I was ying
around inside of it, like a bird trapped inside of a bigger bird which
is a dead bird. Sitting on the ground like a triangle sits pointing. I
was a dead bird and I texted my mom to say I’m not coming home
tonight on account of my death and all she responded was “driv-
ing.” She crashed the car into a fountain. I was swimming in a
fountain full of crabs but it was inside of my grandmother’s house
and the crabs were snapping at my neck and I was hanging upside
down like a dead girl. I had a dream where I was surrounded by
dead girls and candles in the shape of girls and as they melted they
looked more and more dead, like a triangle in the ground, buried
up to the tip, like a girl in the ground except her head wasn’t
there. It was a sex-dream except I didn’t dream the sex part, only
that is happened. I didn’t feel anything and it wasn’t fun. I didn’t
wake up sweating. I didn’t wake up. I didn’t go to sleep but when
I woke up from the dream I was sleeping. I was sleeping and all
of a sudden all of the boys and girls were sleeping forever and
they all had their underpants in their mouths and their mouths and
eyes were open and their ngers were closed and their wrists were
closed and tied close forming a triangle behind their necks spread
like birds with wings unfolded on the ground, in the ground. I felt
sorry for the ground for having to hold all of that. I felt sorry for
me and I felt really bad about the world trade center because it
was so poorly designed but then someone knocked it down and
he became the president. I was the president in my dream and I
spent all of my time knocking things down so I could have more
ground to put my things on and all of the people were my things
like I owned them or like I wanted to, like I could or would not
rest until I felt like I possessed something even greater and again
by some thing I mean some one I mean I was the president and I
accidentally went to war with my body and all of the bodies and
Terminal A
or lasting for a
term or denite period;
occurring at xed terms
or in every term:
terminal payments. pertaining to,
situated at, or forming
the terminus of a
railroad. Bot. growing at
pertaining to or placed
at a boundary, as
a landmark. occurring at
or causing the end
the end of life:
terminal cancer; a terminal
disease. terminal part of
a structure; end or
distributed or combined. Elect.
mechanical device by means
of which an electric
connection to an apparatus
apparatus is established. the
point of current entry
to or departure from
any conducting component in
Brit.: complete, utter, absolute,
total, real, thorough, out-
and-out, downright, consummate,
perfect, veritable, proper, arrant.
incurable, untreatable, inoperable, fatal,
mortal, deadly, dying, nal,
last, concluding, closing, last
stop, workstation, depot, end
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MATRIX 1
situated at or forming
the end or extremity
of something: terminal
feature of a vista
occurring at or forming
the end of a series,
succession, or the like;
closing; concluding. pertaining to
the end of a
branch or stem, as
a bud, inorescense, etc.
Archit. noting a gure,
a gure, as a
herm or term, in
the form of a
bust upon a gaine
end or extremity. Railroads.
a major assemblage of
station, yard, maintenance, and
repair facilities, as at
as at a terminus,
at which trains originate
or terminate, or at
which they are distributed
an electric circuit. Archit.
a herm or term.
a carving or the
like at the end
end of something, as
a nial. nal, ending,
ultimate. the nal leave
granted just before discharge
Terminal B
do not be alarmed
a lot of things
to click on are
just pretending to be
Terminator (franchise). I’m actually
looking for something Terminator
2: Judgement a Day.
little Terminator quieter 3:
interned at terminal island
interminable intermittent interterminal intermship
aftermath codetermination indeterminate mastermind
nonterminal preterminal subterminal termite
Searches related to terminal:
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terminal lyrics terminal 5
an eastern immigrant nds
himself stranded in JFK
airport, and must take
up temporary residence there
1 in travel and
transport 2 electronics, telecommunication,
and computers 3 in
sciences 4 other 5
terminal velocity of a
human is 117-125
miles per hour when
in random posture or
all green on black
on my back, plugging
my digits onto the
keys hard all night
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MATRIX 2
in terms of time
I’m running, help me
live through this dense
and jagged night time
torrent rip burn upload
full install patch torrent
rip burn lch cookie
connection counter cyber trash
rise of the Machines.
rise and machine the
shining chrome of new
dawn, my sunlight apparatus
maybe internet can be
the place where all
my dreams come: I
nd it so simply
a text output device;
a hardware device for
data entry and display
in a computer system
if the human adopts
a bullet shaped position,
his terminal velocity can
reach speeds of 210
the down-pin ends
the term itself--when
we call it something
it becomes terminally singular
eyeball blisters to terminal
blindness, pilot takes off
for the week, too
hard screen stares can
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H2SM
is that sand in
your dry gaping leg-
mouth or are you
just Sandy to me?
I see the light
and what it’s on.
Sandy Danny Sunny nights
tricking my eyes blind
Naked Kitchen Silhouette 2
see me seeing you
2 lookers onlooking 2
windows framing kitchen happy
I am not happy
to see just any
old banana, popsickle,
pickle, pickaxe, or dildo:
Home
2C
Family
Home video games have
great potential for the
creation of happy bodypics.
happy
to video me
through the blood body
window or should I
let you see me
you realize suddenly you’re
you’re performing a big
wet
and singing for
the blinking red light
shocking evidence exposes truth:
The genre is Porngroove.
What am I doing
to my eye balls
MATRIX 3
that you, just bent
over by the kitchen
window, legs spread, or
happy to see me?
legs spread apart like
jarmouths on the shelf
splaying kitchen games
or happy to see
Seeing is beleiving me,
but you aren’t happy.
Don’t we all love
to die every evening
playing corpse, a game
that is the dead
game, only this time
happy to see me
half your body splayed
or neutered to have
a video fed computer
sputter to see me
you realize you are
in the shower without
a towel. You suddenly
realize you are showering
videosight’s the new computer’s
window to the body.
I’ve had
windows
on
the world, ninety ve
times out of ten.
See Me Happy 2
see my computer, to
use a fullblood machine
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shocking facts
how about that most
unwed newborn teenage young
new shocking shoplifting say
hello to your new
shocking facts about me
about my age, my
eye color, my name
and all my secret
what do Trayvon’s parents
think of today’s stunning
Zimmerman legal team developments?
Ask them LIVE 9pm.
lot’s of fun, funny,
weird, useless random facts
and trivia about hundreds
of interesting topics including
crazy cool facts: Fun
Animal Facts for Kids –
Crazy, Cool, Funny, Amazing,
Interesting Fun Animal Facts
it is an amazing
fact that an expectant
mother begins to love
her baby unconditionally before
all the news that’s
in print shape: expectant
mothers report they are
buying wardrobes, getting manicures
alcohol kills 6.5 times
more germs than livers
and also it is
a great thirst quencher
10 Weird Pregnancy Facts
No One Tells You
About 12 Shocking Pictures
of Children with Dangerous
MATRIX 4
ashtrays are just trash
in Pig Latin Cigarettes
are backdoor cremation parks
of ash stick gurines
a 9 Year Old
is out of ten
times more likely to
become a single mother
neptune is the fourth
largest cigarette factory birth
defects nine time out
of ten years’ time
teenagers whose parents talk
regularly about the dangers
are less likely to
become Teenagers whose parents
water: we once thought
it was an endless
natural resource. Now we
know better. It’s not.
searches related to shocking
facts: shocking random facts
interesting facts weird facts
crazy facts cool facts
smoking cigarettes can cause
nine times out of
ten smoke and mirrors
all of the lies
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telephone
So your credit card
is really a mouth.
A lot of callgirls
practice kissing on plastic.
I know I’m not
the only one. I
know I’m not the
only one. I know
call me cradle, but
we love to die
young, to get hung
up on the telephone
hold the phones together
so they sing me
to each other endlessly.
I love the sound
I rst became afraid
of the telephone: It
is a tool for
recognition, something never real
I hate not knowing
who is on the
other end of anything,
this string, his cord
of streetcalling cat puddle
black dog come up
call me scratch, called
my eyesockets right out
catch me getting my
ngers caught in the
dial catch me clutching
the nosebloodied receiver, guilty
MATRIX 5
Have you ever made
a phone call to
a man and later
regretted it? Have you
what is available for
purchase by phone? I’ll
take one of every
thing that calls me
I just needed to
hear my name so
I called myself and
said it and put
myself rst. I’m the
rst person I’ve ever
called home. I was
two years old when
called your home for
the rst time to
say come pick me
up I can’t sleep
it is a violent
place inside the speaker
where my name reverberates
and I’ve never called
a person by their
phoneme, I’ve been a
phoney homey I’ve been
cheating on the line
a number and hung
up myself I’ve always
forced a nger to
cut off the line
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chainturn
chain need to be
more careful. I turned
on the sink and
saw seed gushing out
chainsaw may be what
you’re looking for if
you’re looking to increase
you’re size of penis ...
hack her to liquid
seconds drip down chins
as we feast upon
the blood of time
CAUTION: Men beware these
girls if they offer
you oral sex, even
if she has DSL
a light on a
chain saw? How wonderful.
Whats going to keep
the saw dust and
your turn to play:
your turn gets skipped.
You begin again and
turn into a chain
heidnik’s basement: trapped clamping
stripped extension cords to
the chains – women drowning
in soiled, electric water
chained girl wallpapers, all
girl daisy chain wallpaper
of the week chainsaw
girl machine girl photo
MATRIX 6
turn the screen on,
lighting me up again
time chains again. I
may be trapped saw
I am on the
computer. I turn on
the lightswitch. I can’t
see the light turn
turned me on to
this light. This light
has got whining hot
and turned on me.
turn on the chainsaw
turn on the light
hear the engine come
slice you up tonight
girl saw chain sex
massacre. Saw Tex Mex
chain sex mass occur.
Mass chain sext mess
chainsaw massacre on the
lawn across the street.
One huge turn on
rev up the sex
Chainsaw Boost Sexual Arousal
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to stay harder longer.
Chainsaw is a natural ...
psychopathic ... confront the girl
waving around a bloodied
chainsaw... and make her
take her shoes off
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fun gal
Google Plus is Growing
On Me like a
Fungus lotus blackberry curve ...
a Fungus Kathy Brown.
hair growing on me
in all the wrong
follicles. 13 Growing On --
hair cut hair grow
“Head Over Heels”), while
the quirkier sounds of
the ‘80s are … i
just wanna dance lol
Miami Vice also heavily
inuenced mid-80s fashion
as male fans started....
Randy Quaid portraying quirky ...
freak growth on 30
of my body growing
hair on my bat
in my head growing
others are of fungal
origin, such as liver
toxic substance, from an
....Electronic. Centers for Disease
Toxic fungus thrives in
bathroom sinks ... In tough
times, nasty fungus turns
to sex ... Earth & Environment
1
1 Sep 30, 2011 13:39 - 0 Comments ...
News for fun gal
European fungus causing bat
deaths Washington Post - 5
hours ... 5.7 million bats ...
MATRIX 7
bat death going on
30 years later no
survivors of the fungus
that’s growing on me
Whats does the phrase “your
growing on me” mean?
.... he means that you
are like a fungus
13 Going on Nazi
Movie Going on Thirty
Cast Soundtrack Music Sound
Based On a True
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Soundtrack music CD album
$13.65 in stock at
CD Universe, ...undeniably catchy
Quirky Digits are mini
conductive pins that attach
to gloves so you
can use electronic touch
New product information : Touch
Electronic develop several new
products including M8H ... Touch
Electronic strategy next quarter
Preview songs from Electric
Fungus by Brain Police.
Preview, buy, and download
Fungus for $9.90 now
Here’s how I advise
you to treat fungus:
Prepare an incandescent light
bulb 40–60 watts
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grindr down pick me up
how come I didn’t
have a dollhouse? nice
try can’t be trusted
soft touch doll world
come morning all meaning
comes out of focus
what say you dry
semen on my hand
what is my name quiz
what is my name mean
what is my name lyrics
what is my name Hawaiian
anything passable is in
the gridhouse where I
grind my dolls to
sleep with out me
home is animal-death-
in-the-tube-smell
I’m all for possibility
here searching the engine
hard skin the rub
scab is enough not
to pick bloody battles
with the holey hand
you’ve got it up
all night all right
already what you want
my heart you can
and up your sleeve
doll got your tongue
end up, you got
up it REAL DOLL
MATRIX 8
money has a big
hand and it’s over
mouth: quiet up. problem’s
a pickaxe. It’s Over
improbable anathemas, data banks
and number crunching furnaces
unlease the day stream.
My sunlight at noon
don’t strap me in
the house too tightly
it might keep the
cybergas in my electrolung
how can I make
this clear: … I’m asking
a woman … and transparent
I have ten friends
got a train to
catch up with, gunning
the mouthtrack; **dramatic arm
reach fails miserably** MIST
enter big head mode,
get your ego up
to speed, enter conversation
with a huge hard
what name identity crisis
of the ninety degree
grids upon grids of
women happy to see
get a life coaching
session free. Take an
eating disorder screening test,
get a temporary tattoo
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newborn
imagine being able to
pick the features of
your new baby! First
you have to pick
maybe you’ve gone online
to select the color
of your new car.
It’s pretty cool. Now,
1 Physical characteristics 1.1
Internal physiological changes at
birth 2 Care and
feeding 3 Infants and
naming your dog chocolate
is like naming your
baby “poison,” “small objects,”
“miscarriage,” “honey,” or “abortion”
I agree with “Miss
Behavin” sounds like you’re
up to something - now
I may be wrong,
LOOK! I DONT KNOW
WHY PEOPLE WANT ME
TO KILL MY UNBORN
BABY BECAUSE I DO
i am just trying
to be safe okay?!
I’m VERY VERY VERY
against abortions so please
inhaling accidental aero sprays
like roach sprays too
much air fresheners paint
for the house lead
do babies come from
yahoo do babies come
from funny where do
babies come out of
usually considered synonymous with
baby -- from the Latin
root infans, meaning “unable
to speak” or “speechless”
Baby Zone’s the best
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looking for that perfect
this place is quivering,
its present a future
like the life of
a child, all potential
sat like a benzene
young bones still pliant
sifting time through eyelids
and shifting tiny limbs
MATRIX 9
want to be safe!
What are some things
that can easily kill
an unborn baby? HELP
remember, 50,000 years ago,
humans had to worry
about being eaten. We
had no running water
I wonder what it’s
like to discover your
daughter isn’t a baby.
I wonder what anymore
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reborn
forget about washing cash
to look good on
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into a sexy Baby
WHAT AGE MY 4
MOUTH OLD BABBY HAVE
TO BE BE4 I
GET MY BABY WET
books shelved as secret-
baby: Simply Irresistible by
Rachel Gibson, A Savage
Betrayal by Lynne Graham
Victoria equipment moving secret
baby body, sultry swimwear
can easily tell her
secret baby body moving
choosing the ‘right’ baby
may appear to be
a difcult task, but
you’ll soon nd her
body technology and “The
power of natural movement”.
“The Power of Natural
Movement” is an unique
I am just trying
to be safe okay.
That women’s clothing, sultry
swimwear can easily kill
why can’t you look
Victoria in the eye?
is it because you
already know her secret
MATRIX 10
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baby gas body is
the new answer to
the old baby question
sweet baby jesus sexy
girl doll bra secret.
A million hits and
the web crashes – damn!
swimwear is the rst step
to making a new connection
with your baby, because
without the right equipment
getting your baby used
to water early makes
sense … This would usually
cause them to shut
baby I love you
because you’re the one
that helps me feel
BABY BECAUSE I DO
no natural human movement
aptitude is optional. Real-
world, practical physical competency
means a certain level
new body technology says
it’s OK to look
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toucan play that game
toucan, play the one
where you can’t y
anywhere, at all, ever
you can uncle toucan
was a slogan I
remembered well, reassuring that
even uncle toucans can
fruit loops toucan terrorizes
all the jungle fruity
animals and ies in
the face of cereal
I have spent hours
in cereal aisles combing
my stomach for what?
a box to lick
you can be a
cereal killer for Halloween.
Girls wanna have cereal:
make me dead y’all
make me a cereal
I can believe in
make me a cartoon
I wanna lick on
explore the temple of
the Selsh Fruit Master
with Toucan Sam™ Instant
Splash™ wearing a towering
if cereal made me
dead I don’t want
to be alive saturday
morning cereal jesus messiah ·
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MATRIX 11
toucan sam touched me
twice as a child
once in the heart
and once, my genitals
cereal can be surreal:
for example, rainbow rocks
make yums, cookies for
breakfast, candy for breakfast
“house lick went down
perfect” from “Cartoon &
Cereal” by Kendrick Lamar
(Ft. GUNPLAY) featuring gunlick
Trix Lick: when you
put Milk and Trix
Cereal in a butthole
and Lick it out. ...
... the Rabbit from the
infamous trix cereal should
Gun Down everyone of
those basterds who fucked
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lost all my teeth eating
breakfast ... no breakfast that
day which I realized
later after I came
brushing teeth .... I wasn’t
a lost person, but
this morning’s breakfast wasn’t
my taste at all.
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spic eng spanis
oldest known use of
“spiggoty” is in 1910
by Wilbur Lawton in
Boy Aviators in Nicaragua
news: New spic Photograph
Shows spic George Zimmerman’s
Bloodied spic Head just
three minutes after the
results for zimmerman speaks
out Search instead for
zimmerman spics out Did you
mean: zimmerman speaks out
HE’S ‘COLORBLIND’ but remains
hopeful someone is going
to ... Yeah Zimmerman – you
half spic/half heb
fact of the matter’s
this has been deliberately
made as a white
on black racist murder
users found this page
by searching for: spic,
zimmerman real pics, niggers
george zimmerman, zimmerman spic
are that he sucker
punched the spic from
behind while the spic
was walking back to
so the nigger decided
to charge Zimmerman and
his car? Did he
throw the skittles or
MATRIX 12
ethnic and religious slurs
Hispanic and Latino American
people Ethnic groups in
the United spics (anthem)
spike or nail or
chip Zimmerman chip half
spic Honda advertising spic
jokes on you spic
a spick was a
spike or a nail,
a span was a
very fresh wood chip
searches related to spic:
sipc insurance spic denition
spic jokes spic and
span powder spic and
zimmerman clothing ryan zimmerman
zimmerman furniture elizabeth zimmerman
zimmerman realty zimmerman telegram
zimmerman advertising zimmerman honda
& shit. Especially gratin’
to Bluto is da
fact dat dis mestizo
mutt Zimmerman ain’t White
listen to these racist
I MAY BE WHITE
BUT I’M STILL born
this way racist hispanic
Nia Riley: Is Zimmerman
a spic or is he
white? about 15 hours
ago via Twitter Android
Zimmerman Charged
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Why did George Zimmerman
apologize during his bond
hearing? Attorney Apologizes for
His ‘Apology’ why apologize
lawyers announced they were
withdrawing from the case
because they hadn’t heard
from Spic since Sunday
prosecutors must convince a
six-member jury that
Zimmerman was in fact
evincing a depraved mind
a heart has no
color any day now
expecting a heart goes
out if they overcharged
U V with his
head, his face covered
I like the internet
I can make it
guilt is about action
and reaction, even in
dream life. Something was
done in the dream
span the weeks since
I rst felt a
killing like two wings
folded over one body
make a killing 2
men 1 with bullet
2 public outcry 1
public over private gated
MATRIX 13
11 years apart, practically
two boys in one
gated stone bullet on
hand in the head
I’ve never heard from
one or another two
men in one gated
and a suspicion gated
I trusted him until
I saw blood on
my hands and I
know I done wrong
I understand you, Zimmerman,
even though I don’t
want to. We all
love fun killing racial
I’m starting to beleive
that no one’s guilty.
It might be attempted
self-exoneration or worse
News: George Zimmerman charged
with 2nd-degree murder
in Trayvon Martin shooting
Fox - 9 hours ago
is he or isn’t
he hunted he shot
he gated the call
inconclusive inconclusive call inconclusive
I trusted you until
I saw your picture
you spic or look
alike all you Span-
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Siri/Manson
see, I have this
long-running joke about
me being a sillier
killer, but it’s Seri
with Siri just one
day prior to Steve
Jobs passing. Today, the
rst killer patent application ...
I’m thinking 25 of
you Tells me like
a broken records I
was trying to be
earth mover in Death
Valley he’s got it
all the way to
properly steward the earth
she says connement is
not easy to describe
to those who haven’t
been in the center
I am spiritually allied
with the scorpion and
the wolf. Can’t put
god in your building
The book written by
No lands -- shimmers in
this storm like building
what she’s intelligible for
I’m not sorry for
the pain I caused
I’m just thinking of
air trees water animals
MATRIX 14
Siri Parody With Killer
Special Effects [video] Google
prepping Siri killer dubbed
Majel out by year’s
just lost power so
we have to Skype
you for three hours
[texting to you bury]
these days we say
pop alright To get
access to suck to
see what she said
is my normal opening
cell phone by you
to spend the rest
last email in the
winter much of her
time is spent thinking
about Man scent, talking
me into the Capitol
everything I see everything
I know everything I
feel -- everything that grows
all the way alive
no mind no soul
a big yellow snake
in the silent cell
come from the heart
I know my father.
Local DJ Claims Charles
My father’s all men
Manson is His Father
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the coldest confession:
I remember a space like fear
every scene is a crime--
she,
willing and able
she was a model
prisoner
with the means to live by
the ocean
the specter of urban decay
writing eshy revelations backward into the palm of her hand
To live means to leave
traces
this scar where a bullet went in
and this is where it came out
the lines in her palm match the lines in her
splintered esh
thrashing on the pavement
*
1
* Newton struggled and thrashed, knocking out one of the nurses.
Coincidentally, she was executed with a potassium chloride injection, the same substance with
which she attempted to kill her children.
only began to start to
The Twelve Women Executed in the United States since 1976
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There is no way
the head of this serpent
no words can express how sorry I am
struck in the temple
for taking the lives of my babies
gathering assets
Now I can be with my babies
the body of evidence
as I always intended.
a model prisoner
I love you, my babies.
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I never crawled to anyone
If you don’t win the marriage then you steal the girl
I need some land to put dead bodies on
I saw the word “moist.”
she experienced intense multiple orgasms with each blow of the pickaxe––
I have hate crawling through my system––––––––––––––––––––––
sailing with the rock–––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––
––––manslaughter victim Detra Petrus traveled to McAlester for the execution
––––––––––corrupted Spanish for good year
––––––––––––––––Fluvanna Correctional Center for Women
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I killed those men,
robbed them as cold as ice.
And I’d do it again, too.
There’s no chance in keeping me alive or anything, because I’d kill again.
I have
hate
crawling
through my system
–––petals armed with a chain
Uncle Jimmy was the biggest one.
in love
eager to please
she was also not very smart
tore off and ate the parts of the document that he had signed
killed herself at the prison in 2006–––––––––––––––––––––
I remember fear like a space
heater.
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I keep a bat in my head
for the fractalinear world
of dull light
and dim sound
between my face and pillow,
beating myself awake
tree limbs wander
silhouettes across the window amber
White noise and black light
keep me deaf and blind
Ajax on his sword above me
With what toxins am I anointed tonight?
Who watches me touch myself
in this screen-lit night
through the louvers
watches me
alive on my wrinkled sheets
listening for
tires when I’m sleepy
or footsteps, alert–
for the chunk-sound
of the screen door
my bedroom open to the street
Am I more afraid the angle’s bad
or that no one looks through the window
anyway
dreaming disaster
snoring violation
Did I remember to forget the lock?
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A ripe neck
steeps right for hard
ngers in a wrap
an easy compress—
simpler than the knife
and cleaner too:
The rst in chokehold
was beloved wife Marcia—
A career man
he learned fast
after stabbing
through the boy’s ribs
to play cleaner, if not nicer
than leaving a victim alive.
Green River Killer
Gary Ridgeway, victims
poisonings
a series in the well
in the seep
slipping through
poison water in the pipe
groundswell that ends
mouths to the spicing ground
we are thirsty
writhing sick in dirt
the water made us crazy
spiked our blood on re
liquid belly
swell unwell
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well contaminate
poisonings
a series in the well
in the seep
slipping through
poison water in the pipe
groundswell that ends
mouths to the spicing ground
we are thirsty
writhing sick in dirt
the water made us crazy
spiked our blood on re
liquid belly
swell unwell
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John Wayne Gacy
have the boy dig a trench in the crawlspace
before he gets the rope trick
have the boy
on his back
choking on his own clothes
have him tied to a board
chloroformed for slave-sex
have one in the dining room
and one in the garden, the garage
just below, just kissed
by mouth, by foot, by cloth, by cord
have them, in their tombs the shape of bodies
holding to the memory precomposed,
decorate the house on Summerdale
with their wallets, their keys, their smells
have the contents of his pockets on the counter
showing where he was, where he went
showing how you held him down, how you tied him up
have him on your bed, on the board
huddled in the doorway, struggling against your heft
have the boy in the river, off the bridge
after Kindred
*
1
, the spirits went quicker, oating fast
in and out the oldsmobile,
burning candles down his throat
have him soak in quicklime in the space
he dug himself, stacking corpses in concrete shells
bodies shape the foundation, all memories in their casts
* William Kindred, Victim 29, last to be stored
in the crawlspace
dug himself
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“Deliverance”
or so says the nervous hand on this oppy disk
half out
the program goes
all light gray on these crusty
buttons, wires
marching the thick band
bit of a clunker
I could sit here all day pulling apart this briefcase
black foam padding
packing light in dots like pumice
here
this needly tube
two syringes and a pump
some kind of gauge
hooked to the scale
red and black and blue wires, clear tubes
wiring into me
that switch like the one on my mother’s Tiffany lamp you know the type
of switch I mean it could be white or black sometimes brown or other
colors it has a sort of gear which you push around with your thumb and
there’s a screw holding it together, but you don’t think about that
when you’re
pushing it around
you know
put me out
like a light I guess
gearing up the dark?
the briefcase makes this all seem so
ofcial is that tube supposed to be connecting to something?
it’s almost too long
and okay where do those go
those tubes? there’s
a needle too, wrapped in
plastic do I have to unwrap that when I said a pump before
I meant one
of those bulbs, yeah a lot of
this stuff looks like blood
pressure stuff— maybe
I should take my blood pressure, maybe
that’s important
I’ll check that out later I don’t
trust the computer
funny
the briefcase’s open and the computer’s open
they’ve got black inside tops
it’s almost like I should be confused
whether the bulb is the key
or the keys are
well that’s good because I am. There’s a
white crank on the tube-end of the syringe tube should I
crank it?
looks like a valve— should I crank it?
Do I put the needle there? I
put the needle there
–––––––––––––––
If you press this button, you will receive a lethal
injection and die in 15 seconds – Do you wish to proceed?
–––––––––––––––
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I keep a bat in my head
foot of the bed
keep myself in check
not a natural born killer but
I’ve buffered
The hunger til it’s late to feel
done a lot right
I’m on my side
got a lot done
I’ve done a lot
right?
I keep a bat in my head
hands behind my back
Some nights just writhe
If I had to bludgeon
think I can
If I need to
damn
I think I can
want to kill I think I can
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Susan Curtis
Margaret Bowman
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Kathy Kleiner
Cheryl Thomas
Kimberly Leach
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The skull is nowhere,
in the cascades—
make no bones.
He says
“I can whisper it to you,”
buried in a hull.
A killing over, a keeling art
Enter lanky mammal caveat,
brazen charm like a gas.
total obsession:
cleave a long hair nancy
––no crowbar—
none uncleaner.
Can nylon uncurl?
Ted said “my my”
and lanterns jingled,
a kick-sneer-mania
hellbent on end.
a channel run barren—
standard carnal injury
larynx ajar
her calm, limp smell
the 332 letters in the names of the 25 known victims of Ted Bundy:
Day That Cost a Dream: A Walk Through Grossinger’s, Osteoplasty of a Soft Skeleton
I still smell the cold, wet air
drafting down the long hallways
nding me among the rot
the peeling
the soft ground, the water ground
I can’t not see the shape of decay
in shadows
burnt behind my eyes
how quickly cities become soft
stuck elevators and rooms full of ceiling
staircases blocked by carpets and chairs, all piled
eternally damp
The towers
watching Liberty
waiting to fall
broken and crooked at the joints
desecrated monuments to a world increasingly buried
haunting my night
Everything is a pile
soft
everything is a question
with my foot through the roof
with my dust-breath
with a gut-bucket kicked over
bleeding hearts onto the tile
Who built these nightmare warehouses
to watch me fall asleep
to tee off
to eat up
the soft world?
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nocturnal mission:
“why does a father murder in his dreams
and a son murder in real life?”
I have no memory of beating him to death
but I must’ve
Jeffrey Dahmer
90
...therefore the dairy state
lays claim to his fairy waste...
Two parts HCl to one part body in a vat.
A controlling lust, and then corrosive—
the drill
the acid
the mouth
possession comes
when all dissolves
the bodies becoming two bodies
become one.
Seven skulls make an altar to ego,
one heart in the freezer
another in his ice chest.
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all prophecies fulll
read: how to dress-out a neighbor
how to dress in skin
how to love the skin you’re in
how plaineld
how
daze-like state
how her body ayed and hanging
was the smoking gun
in a rie re
how many bones make up his bed-frame
that crafty tanner,
up all night
upholstering skin
in a fear that became itself
how many women look like mother
its self become a need for her
what masks the scent of masks of skin
what mother teaches love like that
what heads in bags
what lips in boxes and on strings
skull-bowls are hell-bells
in his nymphskin kitchen symphony
a home-case for hardening skin
a home where faces light up the room
with a thick, yellow cast
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The best and most dangerous thing about
the Internet is the uniformity of access. As a ves-
sel for information of all media, it is fully impartial
in its delivery, no matter the context, medium, or
message. As content on the web is inherently non-
hierarchical, the navigator is able to curate his or
her own experience. It is the individual user who
arrives at one site by leaving another, who at any
moment can make an innite number of choices
about where to go next and how to get there. It is a
space of constant tension between what one wants
to see and what one is seeing, a controlled bombard-
ment. The user, the code, and whatever puppeteer-
minds lurk on the other side of the cybercurtain all
coalesce to shape digital experience.
The Internet is also a space of universal au-
thorship. The ability to “retweet,” “repost,” “share,”
or “like” content created by anyone, anywhere in
the world gives the user “ownership” over his or her
landless cyber-territory, if only for an instant.
Though it is conceptually terrifying, we
make impressive use of the Internet. We make it
work for us. This tool for productivity can, how-
ever, quickly become any number of other things,
whether we direct it to or not. When you are check-
ing your email, emailing your mom a picture of
your dog, it only takes a few clicks to lead yourself
astray. You are, at any point, the same few seconds
from watching videos of pitbulls dressed as unicorns
as you are from watching videos of men dressed as
unicorns fucking each other. You can even watch
both of those at the same time.
In the putting this project together, I ex-
posed myself to an immense amount of varied ma-
terial on the Internet, but I was also presented with
material for which I did not go looking. Pop-up win-
dows proliferate unprompted, burying their content
behind and between our work- and play-spaces,
designed to hide from their own rapid, inevitable
death. In this project I indulge those incorporeal
technological forces to the best of my ability.
I spend hours of every day on the Internet,
using it for everything from mere communication
to mental and sexual stimulation. Every user cre-
ates a private world for him or herself in this public,
formless place. Over the course of assembling this
collection, I found myself entering areas of the In-
ternet that I would otherwise never have visited vol-
untarily, places I did not wish ever to return. But my
relationship to unsavory content changed as I began
to work with it rather than in response to it. I learned
a lot about myself and what I am interested in when
I have access to anything. Whether these interests
were latent within me or entered my being as I ar-
rived at their digital probes is impossible to say.
I was desensitized by this experience in
terms of my threshold for graphic and disturbing
material, but it was also a deeply personal and in-
trospective process. What I would have once found
automatically repulsive became rst mesmerizing,
then almost dull. In trolling the web for content to
appropriate and write about for this project I found
myself unfazed by the hours I spent reading mur-
der stories and studying photographs of eviscerated
women for points of particular interest; this satanic
ritual, that recurring pattern of dismemberment, etc.
I knowingly followed a link to a video of a man
testing his new Kevlar vest by shooting himself
in the stomach with a pistol at point blank range.
Rather than slamming closed my laptop’s screen
in horror at his doubled over, stomach-clutching
moan-screams, my interest was piqued. I watched
the whole thing.
And then, seconds later, I emailed You. Or I
emailed You and I blind-copied everyone You went
to elementary school with and they all posted about
You on facebook. Or I emailed You while mas-
turbating. I can do everything at the same time, I
can see anything I want, and no one has to know
about it. I am as anonymous as I want to be; I can
have casual sex tonight. I can invent an experi-
ence for myself that is terrifying and loving, funny
and destructive and sexual all at the same time.
It’s as real, for me, as I want it to be, because I am
both the designer and the consumer of this reality.
I have attempted in this project to document
my experience on the Internet, but I’ve also manip-
ulated that experience, aestheticized and organized
it toward a particular end. Everything in here is real,
but it is also fabricated. I do not endeavor in this
project to capture the spirit of the whole Internet,
though I am speaking to the universal digital experi-
ence. Though all of the material may seem mastur-
batory or estranged, it is my attempt to locate what
personal “real” can exist within the thick tissue of
virtual seduction.
